| Wow.... I havent written in here for like forever..... Well how do i begin. I am a new mom. Things are very different, I have no idea why I am in Rockford, I guess I just went because I was scared. I was going to become a new mom and I didnt know how to handle it, I thought I was going to lose my mind. Well, After I did lleave I started to wish and pray that I could come home. I was forced to live with chriss brother Mike, and trust me this guy was so FUCKING ANNOYING!!!! I had to put up with his ass for like three miserable weeks. I thought I wanted to kill myself, depression was sinking in like poison and I was getting tired of it... Ever since I left key west to stay here I have been in pure depression.. I dont have normal life anymore, and having my son is whats making it harder for me to want to do things like hang out with my friends. Smoke and chill.. I want to see all my friends again.. Dude I hate it here. I feel like someone stomped on my heart and said, "Fucking Die!!" I dont know if this is going to be the last thing I write so pay attention... My life in Rockford, now, is totally lame. Everyone around here are total douche bags. This place is full of stupid drama and it is retarded.. Guns going off left and right, OVER WHAT!?! I dont fucking get it!!! I mean who else will? What gives anyone the fucking right to want to randomly start shooting? Honestly street gangs are totally pointless.... What are your reasons to hate another gang? I mean is it just becuase you are mad that they are not in your gang, or some fucking retarded shit like that.. a re things that fucking hard to just try to finish school and go to college and get A REAL FUCKING JOB OTHER THEN SELL DRUGS!!!!!! IF your tierd of getting SHOT at, and getting tired of being stopped by the police, THEN FUCKING GROW UP AND QUIT THAT SHIT!!!! you are not in a fucking war, Your just immature. If you want a war then sign up for the fucking Army and make something of your selves. Sorry if some people dont get it. Its because I live in the ghetto Hardcore, I have seen some crazy shit here... Chicago is right next to me so yeah... you know what I mean... And the cops here are fucking pricks, they dont give a shit about anyone OR anything.... I have one of my friends here get shot in the leg just for being in someone elses territory.... No bull shit.... Do you get it? I dont..... I want to get out of here.... It isnt safe. And I want all my friends back... But there is no way out.... What am I going to do? |
